What I thought was impossible!

Well, it is official...I will be graduating on May 16th (I passed my 6 hour essay comprehensive exam!!!). This is something that never in my wildest dreams did I think I was going to do. Although I always dreamed of getting my Master's degree, I never would have guessed that it would be from a Seminary and I never thought possible that it would be in Philosophy of Religion! I guess I have surprised myself! It is funny...when I started at DenSem in January 2006, I had no idea why I was here and what I wanted to do. I simply desired to learn, to gain knowledge about the most important things in life, to become an intellectual! I started out in the Christian Studies program because I really had no direction, no passion for a certain program. In January of 2007, after taking an apologetics class by an awful teacher, I was so intrigued by the subject matter that I decided to give philosophy a shot. Honestly, I never thought I was smart enough to ACTUALLY finish the program. (I still don't think I'm smart enough and thus I have no idea how I did it...ha!) I guess in the back of my mind I was so in love with philosophy of religion but knew that it was way to challenging for me (esp. the epistemology and metaphysics) to actually finish will a decent GPA. But, I decided to give it a shot and see if I could do it! And, well, here I am, 2 months away from completing the biggest and toughest accomplishment of my life yet! I could not be more excited and quite frankly I am still baffled...it seems surreal! I guess I am prove that when God calls you to something and you put your heart, mind, and soul into it, you can do more than you ever imagined possible!
So, that is the highlight of my life right now! But, with that said, I have lately been feeling like this dog: hopeless and fearful.